I Am Choosing Me

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I do not want to be here I am tired of the pain
Your indifference and the solitude is making me insane
I feel trapped in this abyss that has become my heart
Your words have me drowning, they are tearing me apart
I cry for the future and cry for the past
I wonder how long I can truly last
I am slowly dying from the pain that is destroying my mind
You never seem to notice are you really, truly blind
Your words are like daggers they cut me to the bone
The tears that I cry, are ones you have never known
Not because you do not see them but because you do not care
Though you are with me it is though you are not even there
I am tired of crying, my tears I will wipe clean
My spirit is waking, longing to be seen
If you will not reach me I will have to let you go
I am choosing to live, I just thought you should know
I have waited for something that I hoped would come to be
I waited too long hoping you would finally see
Your eyes have not opened and my mind has paid the price
Well I am done paying, I am done playing nice
If you will not see me and show me the way
Then my time I am taking and goodbye I will say
I hoped for a future that is clearly impossible to reach
Now I am reaching for a solution that a lesson could not to teach
My time was not wasted nor will I regret
I have treasured many moments I will not soon forget
But I move on to a horizon that for me has time to spare
To find a path with room enough for me to share
Not to walk alone without love by my side
I have decided I no longer want to run and hide
I will face this truth strongly and use its power to grow
I am choosing myself and I just thought you should know

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