
Do you ever wonder
why I hide inside my shell?
Do you ever consider
how your manipulative words put me through hell?
You call me stupid
because I don’t see it your way
You never apologize
for the heartbreaking things that you say
The words I hate you
run through my head
Every time you tell me I’m so stupid
that I’m better off dead
My mind shatters
when you call me ugly and fat
Starving myself to the point
where my body is immobile here where it’s at
My heart breaks
with every wicked word you spew
Do you know that you are controlling,
and that I hide because of you?
My clothes are too tight, too big
I should wear them a different way
That wrinkle that you caused,
I need to cover and hideaway
You compliment my beauty
as natural to see
Until no one is around,
then the insults you let fly free
I need to change
to dress and act like all of them
From where do you think
all my insecurities stem?
Your razored tongue slices,
enticing my pain
My senses are numbing,
pleading to be slain
You never hit me with fists
this much is true
This damage is worse
this mind rape that you do
My brain screams
for death’s peaceful release
For all this mental torture
to finally cease.
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I thought yesterday’s a harrowing piece but I see you were just warming up! Very, very powerful writing!
Thank you. Your words are too kind. As always, you are a light to my day. Have a fabulous Thursday and stay safe.