Say I can do it, and show that you believe,
Inspire yourself to overcome and achieve,
Not only your dreams but your desires of heart,
Believe in yourself, this is always the first place to start,
Your goals are reachable, as easy as can be,
If you put in the work, and desire to see,
Reach for the stars and pluck them from the sky,
Grow your own wings and teach yourself to fly,
Never say impossible, or so it becomes,
Negativity breeds negative as your mind gradually numbs,
So positive think and positivity speak,
Imagine a rainbow, brighten the horizon that is bleak,
You are your own sun, say this warmth is mine,
Nothing is impossible when you inspire yourself to shine.Advertisements
Our world is hurting, lives are being lost
Innocence and virtue are paying the ultimate cost
Everyone is fighting, the tactics are all the same
No one accepts their part, everyone else is to blame
Our children will suffer, what will be the price
Of an ever evolving world, addicted to money, greed, and vice
Politicians are pointing fingers, people are turning up dead
You can lose your life for how you think, pray, and for things you have said
Will no one stand up for our world as it weeps
From the fear inside, all the secrets it keeps
Our world is scared of the violence, the faces of anger are strange
It is desperately crying, pleading for change.
Having surgery as a busy mother is almost impossible. When you have no choice you count on your family and pray for strength. The guilt game one plays on themselves as a mother begins way before the pain of the surgery. The pain of the actual surgery is nothing compared to what we cause ourselves. The feelings of inadequacy and uselessness are unbearable. While I sit here trying to recover, this is the game I play in my head. I can’t change what had to be done. But as a mother I feel completely at fault for what I currently cannot do. As I watch my children step up to do my job, the pain sears my heart. Everyone seems upset and stressed, mad even. Is this what they feel or just my guilt overreacting.
I hope that all of you have a support system in times like these. I know it is hard and unbearable to watch your whole life from a bed. But I want you all to know, it is okay to be weak. It is okay to ask for help. They need you to get better to be the mother they need. Give yourself time to heal so you won’t have more complications.
Most of all remember they love you and IT IS OKAY.